Thursday, March 17, 2005
(Loving You Is All I Ever Knew How To Do)

The night we met you promised it was me you would keep
You vowed that tears you could never make me weep
You said it was me who had completed your entire year
Another year down the track looks at us both standing
here...
That night together who could have really known the effect?
Neither of us aware a growing love would reflect
Falling for you I did promise to never ever succumb
But sharing this time did make me believe you the one...
Perhaps it was me going and falling to fast
Or both of desperations to escape our fading past
But the promises and passion did slowly begin to die
I find myself once again, left alone to cry...

And cry one million tears I did indeed
For the loss of that love, lack of fulfillment of my needs
Then it came, the crashing bombshell heavy blow
The hidden secret I truly wish I did not know...
From that day forth a change occurred
My heart was broken, my voice was not heard
With communication gone, and our relationship lost
I realize every precious love has its final cost...
That year of happiness did surely have its price
I should have known and been prepared to sacrifice
As my apprehension grew, your interest did disappear
I find myself confronting my worst, most hurtful fear...

My worst, most hurtful fear living a life without you
After every time I have been there to support you through
When push came to shove you couldn't do the same
You've broken your promises and caused me so much pain...
I am forced to live with out you, with out your love
This is tough for me when you're all that I can think of
You were my reason to be, what I did exist for
Now that it’s gone I don't know what I'm supposed to live
for...
You and I are over and can never be us again
It'll be too painful and hard too even try and be friends
I find myself trying to move on without you
When loving you is all I ever knew how to do...
soul rider @ 5:57 PM
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Monday, March 07, 2005
<[Lost Love]>

You said "I love you"
I love you too
from the first time we kissed
I knew this was true

I gave you my heart
and everything I had to show
you bring me blue skies
and I wanted everyone to know

no amount of roses
not all the kisses in the world
could show how much I love
this truly special girl

I couldn't live without
the taste of your lips
your enchanting eyes
and your soft fingertips

minutes turned into days
and days became months
we're still together
I've done something right for once

But somethings wrong
the expression on your face
I could see it in your eyes
your love's misplaced

your hugs grow cold
and your kisses are numb
but I still shout out
that "your the one"

I try to cover up
if your love for me is gone
I shouldn't think this way
I pray to God I'm wrong

But now I know
your smile tells lies
your touch played tricks
and so did your eyes

Now comes the day
I had to say goodbye
you love someone else
tried my best not to cry

I hope you're happy
with whoever holds you tight
I don't want you to know
the pain keeps me up at night

My heart grew heavy
my body became sore
I'm not the one
you say "I love you" to anymore

now I sit all alone
watching my blue skies turn gray
trying to fight all the hurt
that you gave me that day

you are truly gone...
their is no reason for me to cry
you left me in a pool of my own blood
waiting for me to die...

This Poem is about wat i had gone through b4, but no matter wat life muz go on......
soul rider @ 9:56 PM
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EXCEPT the heaven had come so near
So seemed to choose my door
The distance would not haunt me so
I had not hoped before.

But just to hear the grace depart
I never thought to see
Afflicts me with a double loss
'T is lost, and lost to me.

- Emily Dickinson